Do you remember how
as a child, you would always have “dad” check under your bed / in the
closet for those nasty, scary, unwanted “creatures” out to ruin your night
sleep (also known as monsters)?
Do you remember how
your dad, knowing how important this monster hunt was to you, would exaggerate
and pretend to pull and tug on those “darn monsters” and then with a big kick,
he'd kick them out the door?
Yeah I remember
that too! To me, my dad was (and still
is) my superhero.
Do you remember
when you reached the age of “there are no monsters in my closet or under my
bed. Actually monsters don't exist!”
I was so happy
when that age came. I don't know about
you, but I just knew that I would never have to deal with that problem
ever again.
Haha, yeeeeah, well
…. was I wrong!
So … umm … I have
this big scary monster … and well, he likes to think he's my shadow. He seems to follow me everywhere.
In fact I've
decided to name him! Yes, yes, I've
named this monster. I figure, if he's
going to stick around, then he just needs to have a name. I'd like to introduce the monster named …
R E J E C T I O N
You see, Rejection
has always been in my life. Of course,
as a young girl, I didn't realize who exactly was following me around. Actually, I didn't realize it until I was
bawling my eyes out the other night. As
I thought about / analyzed everything I have experienced in my life, it made
perfect sense … it was/is all due to Rejection (can you say light bulb
moment?).
Allow me to give
you the brief history between me and Rejection:
Rejection first
made his appearance the day my father walked out on me and Mom. I couldn't understand why my “daddy”
left.
At ten years old,
my childhood best friend left for CA without saying goodbye.
I was always the
last one chosen for games.
No one really liked
being my friend.
I was told (by a
guy) that I was too fat for any guy to like me.
… fast forward to
this year …
I was given
attention and affection by someone who could see I was naive and insecure. Who was a master of words, and knew what I needed
/ wanted to hear. Who has been given
the opportunity to really show me that they meant what they said. Have they?
Nope, Rejection has won the battle once again.
This last
experience has really torn me apart. It
changed me, for the good and the bad. It
opened my eyes. It has made me grow up a
bit more than before. It has made me
make a huge decision in my life.
I feel God has
allowed me to experience what I experienced this year for this one reason.
I have been living my life accepting Rejection. Making him my “best friend”. Allowing Rejection to be the norm in my
life. Expecting to be rejected by
everyone I become close to.
I didn't know it
until just the other night, but me allowing Rejection to be the norm, has
affected more than one aspect of my life.
It has affected:
>> my
Spiritual life
>> my
attitude
>> my outlook
on life
>> my trust
>> my
attitude towards family
>> my
attitude towards friends
And while it has
affected those aspects of my life, the irony behind all this is this:
I'm terrified of Rejection!
Haha yeah I know,
can you say contradictory? I hate the
thought of being rejected. To this day,
I think about the possibilities of being rejected.
Daddy leaving us
Friends leaving
for no reason
Never being
loved by a man to call my own
…. the list
could go on!
What am I going
to do about Rejection?
Well, I could go
about it the childish way …
“Daaaaaddy!
Daaaaaaaddy, heeeelp! There's a
monster following me around! He won't
leave me alone. Get him please Daddy,
please!”
… and in a way, I
did just that! Confused now? Let me clear up the confusion with the
following verses:
“When the righteous cry
for help, the Lord hears and delivers them out of all their troubles. The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and
saves the crushed in spirit. Many are
the afflictions of the righteous, but the Lord delivers him out of them
all. He keeps all his bones; not one of
them is broken.” Psalm
34:17-20
I didn't call out
to my earthly Daddy, I've called out to my Heavenly Daddy. My Daddy has delivered me out of my
troubles. He has saved me!
So to answer the
question “What am I going to do about Rejection?”, I'm conquering him with
Scripture! I'm tired of living my life
accepting Rejection as the norm.
Now I know this new
road isn't going to be easy. I'll always
have Rejection longing to come back into my life, but I can't live captive to
him … I need to overcome. As 2
Corinthians 12:9 says:
“But he said to me, “My
grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of
my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.”
I will gladly allow
His power to be made perfect in my weakness.
He is the strength I need to overcome. I can do all things (Philippians 4:13).
So I leave you with
this:
This girl
doesn't care if she's still the last one to be chosen in games – I've never
been a fan of kickball anyways. If I'm
never loved by a man to call my own, that's okay. I'm already loved by a man who thinks I'm to
die for (literally!). If my friends
decide to leave that's fine, can I ask one thing: will you please let me know
what I did wrong, so I don't repeat it with my other friends? I'm ready to live my life as an over-comer of
the not so scary monster …
… I'm ready to live it in the hands of the
One who made me, loves me, and will never leave or forsake me!
Love this!!! So glad you have decided to reject Rejection! Definitely a hard decision, a hard path, but one that is worth it!!! Praying for you, sweet girl!!! Love you!!!
ReplyDeleteElizabeth,
DeleteSo glad you loved the post - praise God! He is so good in teaching us lessons of faith at just the right times (even if we think it's the wrong time haha).
It will be tough, but I know that this season of life is the *perfect* time to be an overcomer. In my weakness, He is my strength!
Thank you for being here for me, for praying for/with me, and just being YOU!
Love you more girl!!!!
Ali <3
aww... sweet girl. those that have been the face of that scary monster just don't know what they've missed out on; a tender-hearted, encouraging, witty, self-sacrificing, devoted child of the Most High God. I sure am Blessed that He saw fit to make me your Momma while we're just passing through on our journey to the other side of Eternity with him!
ReplyDeleteMomma,
DeleteI too am thankful that He has made you my Momma! I know with no doubt in my mind, that I wouldn't be where/who I am today had it not been for you.
I love you to infinity and beyond <3 <3
Ali <3
I love this post Ali!!!!
ReplyDeleteReya,
DeleteI'm super glad you loved it.
Blessings,
Ali💕
I will be praying for you, Ali! I love you as my friend and sister-in-Christ and you are a wonderful mentor in my life! Keep living for the Lord, He will give you the strength to over come the monster!
ReplyDeleteOlivia,
DeleteAwe thank you so much for your prayers!
I too love you as my friend and sister-in-Christ.
Awe, well praise God that He could use me in your life.
Thank you very much for the encouragement.
Keep living for Him Olivia!
Blessings,
Alisha💕
This is very good. I was reading the other day that many of us see the world through certain filters, and it seems you have seen the world through rejection. This is such a BRAVE thing yu are doing, standing up to rejection. Blessings to you
ReplyDeleteOld Fashioned Girl,
DeleteThank you - praise God. Yes, I too have heard/read that somewhere. Haha it does seem that I have been wearing the rejection filter for quite a few years lol.
Awe well praise the Lord. He's the only one whose made me "brave" or given me the strength to stand up against this "monster".
Blessings to you too!
Alisha
Ali, I'm so glad that you overcoming this threw Jesus name! love ya more, girl, and keep up the good work! ;)
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